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Not Guilty

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“Guilty.”

“If you don't change your decision, I must announce that the boy who standing there is guilty, and sentence him penal punishment. I'll give you another chance.”

“We have made up our mind, justice.”

“No, he's not guilty!”

“I am asking the jury, not you, plaintiff.”

Clocks/时光

Clocks
Coldplay
Lights go out and I can't be saved
日光渐渐黯淡,我知我已无药可救。
Tides that I tried to swim against
我曾与那些浪潮对抗,
Brought me down upon my knnees
但结果却是遍体鳞伤,跪地求饶。
Oh I beg, I beg and plead
我恳求你,如此地求你放过我。
Singin', come out of things aren't said
轻唱,是谁叫真相水落石出?
Shoot an apple off my head
叫我战战,如射下我头顶着的苹果?
And a trouble that can't be named
无名的困境包围着我,
Tigers waitin' to be tamed
不羁的饿虎紧紧跟随。

Singin' you- are…
唱道:你便是……
you- are…
你便是……

Confusion never stops
即便混乱也阻止不了-
Closin' walls and ticking clocks
四周封闭的墙内嘀嗒作响的时钟。
Gonna come back and take you home
我知道你希望我回头,将一切都带回最初,
I could not stop that you now know
但我想现在你也知道了,我永不停止流逝。
Singin', come out upon my seas
轻唱,来吧,在我的海洋上随波逐流,
Curse missed opportunities
因为我的恶咒正缺个好时机。
Am I part of the cure
噢,我真是人们口中的良药?
Or am I part of the disease
还是侵蚀人身心的慢性疾病?

Singin' you- are…
直唱:你便是……
You- are…
你便是……
You- are…
你便是……
You- are…
你便是……

And nothin' else compares
没什么能与我相比,
And nothin' else compares
没什么能快得过光,
And nothin' else compares
没什么能跑得过时间。

之前像是顿悟一般理解了这首歌,里面的绝望,同时间赛跑的疲惫。于是特意自己翻译一遍,也许不好,但总归是自己的理解。

老地址被谋杀了,迎接新的吧

So the old site died, here’s a new one

Posted on August 10, 2015

by wpnotch

Notch.net,这个老域名一直都只有我借着亚马逊的一个实例在管理……。尽管早打盘古开天辟地的时候就设立了,但我就是懒得搞安全维护更新。几周前,它崩溃了。我就是倒立着登录,安全凭据也都只是失效的,我只能估着:被黑了。怪事,网站日志却告诉我,它崩溃后就只有一丁点儿数据流通,看起来一点不像被拿去当僵尸网络,或者奇怪的代理服务器了呀?

新版本被托管到了 wordpress.com上,在那儿我没什么可担心的了。好吧,除了内容……。棒极了,我就喜欢这种偷懒的感觉XD。

The old notch.net domain was hosted on an amazon instance I managed myself. It was set up many many years ago, and I was very lazy about doing security or maintenance updates to it. A couple of weeks ago, it went down. I tried to log in, but my security credentials were no longer valid, so I assume it got hacked. Weirdly, the network logs showed very little data coming in or out after it went down, so it doesn’t seem like it got used as pdart of a botnet or as a proxy server.

This new version is hosted on wordpress.com where I don’t have to worry about anything other than the content. Nice. I like this.


Amry of One/我即千军万马

Army Of One
Coldplay
词:
Been around the world wonders to view
漫游全世界,阅尽奇观
Been around the world looking for someone like you
徘徊于全世界,希望有个能替代你的人
Pyramids try Babylon too
寻寻觅觅,金字塔,巴比伦
But the beautiful-est treasures lie in the deepest blue
但我知道稀罕珍宝都深埋蔚蓝海水之下

So I'll never say die I'm never untrue
因此我不知何谓死亡,不知何为不忠
I'm never so high as when I'm with you
离开你后,我再找不到那般欢愉
And there isn't a fire that I wouldn't walk through
这世间没有我不愿为你穿过的烈焰
My army of one is going to fight for you
为你而战的军队,仅我一人

Been around the world universe too
游遍世界,恐惧宇宙太过狭小
I've been around flying baby there's nothing I wouldn't do
来回飞翔,啊,我的宝贝,为你我能赴汤蹈火
Dance with the stars while I see the moon
月亮要杀死星星时,我便与他们一同在暗淡前狂舞
I'll be standing there besides you
为你,我永远守候
Right when the storm comes through
即使我要对抗的是狂风暴雨

Cause I'll never say die I'm never untrue
因为我不惧死亡,我将永远忠诚
I'm never so high as when I'm with you
离开你后我再无那份欢乐!
And there isn't a fire that I wouldn't walk through
熊熊烈火,能耐我何?
My army of one is going to fight for you
仅我一人,便成军为伊战斗
My army of one is going to fall for you yeah
仅我一人的军队,为你倒戈

Cause you're right cause you're right
因为你便是真理,你便是正义
Cause you're right
真理就是你
My army of one is gonna call it through
仅我一人的军队,足以抵御千军万马
Say my heart is my gun army of one
把心灵当做枪械,把我当成军队
Yeah my heart is my gun army of one
把意志当做武器,把我当作千军万马
Is my only weapon army of one
那是我唯一的武器了,我也是你唯一的爱人
Say my heart is my gun army of one
把我的爱当做武器,也请把我当作你的千军万马。
译:VictoriesMo

#跨年夜的正确打开方式

A Rush of Blood To 12.13,2015,Sunday midnight

金属牢笼摸起来粗糙不平,而尝起来腥腥咸咸,敲打它会依据位置不同发出不同的、单调的声音。重力来的方向和它的反敲起来声音比较小和闷,垂直于重力的四个方向敲起来或者踢起来比较尖。
呼吸很流畅,光线从一个小洞漏进来,但那光亮程度还不如一个小萤火虫。萤火虫。
我用手指用力扣因锈蚀松脱的边壁,却在一次奇妙的感受后,一股液体沿着手指流下——要不是这个体验,我大概找不到重力的方向呢。
世界坍缩前人们怎么称呼它来着?破伤风?
我知道我只剩我的手是在执行动物性的活动了。
大脑做的事情只有浪费能量。但它浪费得比坍缩前还多。
在这里我忘记了很多东西,身体,眼皮——我要用手指去戳才能确认自己是否闭上了眼睛——,听觉……
可是我没有忘记思考。我还在浪费时间,努力成为一个理智的低熵体。
就从探索物理规则开始吧。我用手指在金属板上轻敲,想,或者说我已经用手指在思考了。

用以下五件事情让自己觉得周末没白过:

1.学习

2.码字

3.玩Minecraft

4.购物

5.游惠州


I Can't Tell If

I don't know what I'm still awake for, or why I want to write these things. Maybe I just want.

While you told me that you loved me, all I could see was just my empty eyes through this black mirror.Fucking mirror.

It'll be a long night bein' thinking, but it's nothin' that I'm thinking.

Cards never go my way, though I know it's unescapable. I am fightin' against time but time it's the most I have…or need.

I can't tell if these fuckin' things are really truth. I can even not tell why I keep sayin' “fucking”. All I need now in this long dark empty night is not time but somebody to talk.

Where is the next lie?I can't tell if there is.

I can't tell if.

两条蓝色的上衣和一条黑色的裤子。

逝者不复反焉

在投身高中第一年的忙碌诸事后,被我忘却的卡在喉头的一根鱼刺突然又痒痛起来。捉起手机一看,又是无作为的一年过去了。

虽说我的心儿依旧联系的论坛,但恐怕各位,不是不曾知识我,便是看来我是失踪了很长时间罢。翻创一蹶不振,直至分裂;又因为嘴巴四处惹祸。也许是累了,也许是厌了。

又是一年秋季。冬季也许在各位眼里是在昏睡中度过的,但三年前的自己意外清醒,注册了这个账号,有预见性地给了这么一个自嘲的ID。

落叶黄了宿舍下的柏油路。人们总说,南方是没有冬天的,但我却感觉颜色正一天天从我指缝间流走。10月21日,平凡而又不平凡的今天,我从书本试卷中抬起头来。——我知道,再没有理由逃避了。

可是我头顶上压着两块巨石。我曾自我评价:一诚信、守纪而友善的人。但我跳进氢氟酸——比锤子更有力地打碎了我的形象。在对论坛现状有些许认识后,我极尽丑言描绘这个我爱着的地方,因为固执己见被冥姐扫地出门。虽然也不想再加回她的创作群了,但因此与她这一爱憎分明之人闹不和,也毫不归于我初衷罢。回头再看自己的头衔,一种来自于过去的自己的嘲讽刺破了我的心。

我心想,总不能依着冥姐罢,只愿继续走下去。但先前自己犯的错误捉住了自己的后腿——签名档中实验性的讽刺终于让我食了一枚苦果。第一次被封禁。那时的我失落到了极点,失望,对自己,对论坛,对一切……

此后连翻创也不逛了。我想大概永远不会再接触论坛管理层一块了吧,就如当初我看Tech的职位一样。阴影罩着我。但翻创版主,冰冰,拾起了我。他,或者说她,是如此一个可爱而又有力量的人啊。我愿为其鞍前马后。但她绝不是万能的,她是人。人是需要休息的,我询问论坛是否还有其他人值得创作版主一职,她只摇头。

她将重担寄在了我和其他人身上。其实我也不敢这么说,我说过,我臭了,她帮着我,也会被惹臭。但她只给了我一个自信而温暖的微笑。

没有什么折了我的翅膀,它们只是绑着。她给了我挣脱束缚的力量。

但现在,论坛就像一本我已许久未翻,忘却殆尽的书。我必须重新阅读它,感受它的呼吸,感受它的心跳。我宣布,我,回来了。

哪怕没人看,小说我也会更新下去;哪怕没人看好,路我也还是要走下去。

感谢一切,你们给予我的,我永远还不了。

祝论坛,越来越好。

祝我在论坛上,三岁快乐。

2015.10.21,晚自修上,

思往事有感而发。


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